Tuesday, 25 September 2007

I am now fully into the Project Management role... but it doesn't really seem the answer for anything.

If I look at the portfolio of things that I am supposed to be handling now - I have site management and project management at work, have GMITE program which is going to get completed in December, have to take the PMP exam (the date, which I have postponed three times now). However, I am really not doing good on any of these fronts and I am not feeling good about it.

I am just not motivated enough. I get these bursts of energy where I do things really efficiently and then there are real slow periods where I just cannot get myself to do anything much. Over the last one week or so, I am going through a slow period.

I have a nagging feeling at the back of my head making me wonder if I am going through cycles of depression - not a 'I can't even get out my bed' kind of depression, but of the milder kind which does not allow me to really do anything useful with myself. If I am going through a depression, what do I do to get out of this?

I still do want to become really good at one particular thing. It is really bothering me like hell that I still haven't figured out what that is... and time is running out!